Anonymous asked: I hope your friends sort their shit out. You deserve love and support. When you get upset you never take it out on anyone or dump your problems on anyone else, and I really appreciate that about you, just thought you should know that. I'm not going to wish you luck for tomorrow because I don't think you'll need it, I know it's going to go fine.
Thank you anon <3
I have three people (not including my darling mother) who I consider my closest friends & whom I will always love no matter what. Currently, two of them do not give a flying fuck about our “friendship”.
The first one..Has been my friend since I was like 9 or something. I love her with my whole heart & get along with her more than anyone I’ve ever met. She’s been going through some shit & I always try my hardest to help her but she pushes me away. It’s like no matter how hard I try to talk to her or help her, it just isn’t good enough. She’s the one friend I never thought I’d lose, but it’s so hard to keep trying when she just ignores me. I love her and miss her so much, but she won’t even talk to me. I don’t know what to do or how to do it.
The second one..claims that I’m her best friend and that she loves me but then everytime she is stressed or irritated she takes it out on me. She pushes her problems onto me & I wouldn’t mind except I’m going through a lot of my own shit. I have fucking surgery tomorrow & she didn’t even bother to wish me luck or tell me that she loved me. I know she has her own shit going on but this is major for me, she knows how scared I am and she doesn’t even care. I just feel like she is only nice to me when she wants something from me or needs someone to talk to and it makes me sick because I would never treat anyone that way. Best friends don’t treat each other like that.
The third one.. <3 The only person in the world who understands me right now. He’s the only person (except my wonderful family) who hangs out with me, has serious conversations with me and seems to actually enjoy my company. He understands how my brain works. He loves me and supports me through everything & I cherish him so much for that. I don’t know what I’d do without him right now <3
Blek.
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